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August 31, 2018 at 1:53 pm #31455
When Kal smells the Nuzzard Fang or “wakes up” out of his fog to find that he’s fighting over bones with the dogs, he’s afraid that he’ll lose himself and hurt someone he cares about.
What do you think about this? Have you ever felt the way Kal does—like there’s something mean or bad inside you that you can’t fully control? How will Kal be okay? What if he does lose himself?
September 3, 2018 at 12:44 pm #31479
I think that as long as Kal has Janner, he will be able to remember who he is. It’s like when Nia (or maybe Podo or Artham) told Janner than when a king forgets his name, and looks for it in the ruin of other cities, it is the Throne Warden’s job to remind him. Janner’s job is to keep Kal safe, even from himself.
Of course, when Janner eventually does leave his brother (though maybe only for a short time, fingers crossed), he gives Kal the gift of a human body again. Kal knows for sure that the wolf inside of him is defeated, thanks to Janner.
I sometimes feel a darkness inside of me, something that wants other people to hurt or to cry. In our lives, I guess we need someone like Janner, someone to remind us of who we are when we feel lost, someone who knows us very very well, and can direct us to Scripture and to prayer. As Christians, we can rest knowing that our identity is not defined by the darkness inside of us, but by the blood of Jesus that has washed us clean. Kal, right now, feels the Fangness all around him and in him, he feels guilty that he gave in to be Fanged. He feels inside that he can never be forgiven, and doesn’t deserve to.