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March 8, 2017 at 10:50 pm #12543
I realize that there are two topics about this on the forum already, but I would like to give it a different spin: I’m the fang in Ban Rona. As most of you probably already know, I’m a missionary in Thailand, and as most of you have guessed, I’m very white, and I really stand out in a crowd of Thai people. Sure, I don’t look dangerous and people don’t hate me, but I do get stared at wherever I go.
Before, I always compared myself to Janner, because he is more like me than anyone else, but Kalmar’s situation in Ban Rona is similar to mine.
Fortunately, the situation is improving, like Kalmar’s did (for a time, anyway). We live in a small town and everyone in our neighborhood knows us now.
Anyway, that’s just a little something I’ve been thinking about. There are quite a few things about Kalmar’s situation that were harder than mine (Gregory Bunge, for example, or the fangishness in his mind), but there are also things about my situation that are harder than Kalmar’s (like the language barrier).
Does anyone else feel like a fang in Ban Rona?
March 15, 2017 at 10:05 pm #12636
Ultimately, I don’t think I’m incorrect in saying (forgive the glaring double-negative) 😉 that…
I think we all feel like Monsters in the Hollows.
(forgive the glaring misuse of the real book title’s meaning) 😉
Or, as David Crowder said in a song “You are not the only one / who feels like the only one.”
*For the record, I think that for the sake of this post, we’re not talking about the EVIL of being a Fang, but the OTHER feeling of being a Fang.
I think we all feel alone in our world sometimes. I think we all have worlds that we feel we fit in, and worlds that we don’t. I think we all feel like “3 armed kids” sometimes (see Pete Peterson’s post http://rabbitroom.com/2017/03/a-writers-fellowship/) in some way or another. For some of us, this is really strong and pervasive in our minds. I find that outward and obvious signs of being “a Fang in the Hollows” are most notable to everyone, and can loom the largest because we have to wear them everywhere (our color of skin, our abilities, our looks, our way of speaking).
In different times of your life, you’ll find different ones of these: things you “wear”— these outward ones. But also there are things you’re given and things you choose.
Some things we choose. There are more secret or background things that make us feel “other.” For example, sin– people chose to lie or deceive or turn their backs on God or people. This is the type that I feel that Tink was going through. It’s important to realize, like Tink, that there’s hope and mercy there. But, in the mean time, there is a lot of heartache and other-ness that you feel in this isolation of people not knowing (or, alternately, of everyone knowing about your wrongs).
There’s also things that we’re given. For example, I was homeschooled. I didn’t chose this, my parents did, but, it separated me from the “average” American experience for the first 18 years of my life. For better, and for worse.
I know that doesn’t seem huge, but pair that with things like– I’m a teacher (who knew nothing about the K-12 public school process), I’m a tomboy (who would rather play video games than watch chic flicks; would rather talk about philosophy or books with swords and dragons than about diets and fashion). It starts to make you feel strange. It has always made me feel strange. And no matter where I go, I do feel strange, for some reason or another.
And, again, things we choose– like, I choose to be quirky. I choose to listen to Rap and Ska instead of “nice” bands that make it onto a top 40 list. I choose to paint coat racks with crazy designs instead of painting my nails. I choose to go to one of the more racially diverse churches in my area rather than find one with people who look more like me (though, see above, I’ll probably never find a place where people act like me). I choose to wear non-typical clothes, read non-typical books, watch almost no tv or movies, make non-typical friends, and care about non-typical things.
In all of the unique and all of the difference–
Difference isn’t easy, but we can refocus and see it as beautiful.
Ultimately, though, do let me say, in your situation, it makes sense that it’s hard. It makes sense that it doesn’t feel right.
Though I don’t understand what it’s like completely, I’ve definitely felt cultural and language isolation for short periods of time, and personal isolation much more often.
It shouldn’t feel right to feel ‘other’ in a way that breaks down communication. Breakdown in communication and personal isolation is never meant for us, but it’s often where we find ourselves in a broken world, ever since the tower of Babel, and more directly, ever since humans left Eden. Humans are meant to know and build trust with each other, and know and build trust with God. That’s what we’re made for, and it’s right that it doesn’t feel right yet.
Thank the Maker for the first well. There is hope. All will be made right. You are not alone.
March 16, 2017 at 8:18 am #12637
I think we are all a fang in Banna Rona at some time in our life. Some people might get it more than others. I have never really thought that you would be different in a group of people from Finland. It also helps that I don’t see people from there almost at all and if I saw some one from Finland I would not know where they came from probably.
But I’m glad that it’s getting better for you. I think in one of Andrews songs, I think “Far Country” there is the part,
Cause we are wandering,
In a forran land …
Sorry forgot how to spell:-p
I don’t think that it means that it has to be a place that’s new and different to us it may mean that though you have lived there for a while it’s not the land that we were born in and were used to and the people are different, and so in a way it could be a ( bad spelling coming up) forrin land, maybe ? possible?. Who knows.
BTW have you ever been talking about people on here and you’re like ” some of my friends, people I talk I mean type to ” It’s so confusing.
Have you ever had that happen to you? I have had it happen to me many times. You can’t tell if their your friends ( i like to think of you people on here as my friends) or if they are just people that you talk I mean type to. There it happened again. Wow that went off of topic quick.
Type to you later? if that makes any sense.